Running while negative

We’re still running slowly but in our defense we have been quite naughty. We missed a couple of mid-week runs and a long one before we left for vacation.

Cotton candy multi-colored sky.

Skipping the runs were either from feeling burnt out or laziness. But either way those breaks felt so¬†good. While on vacation we planned to do two long runs, the 5 miles we missed and another 7 miles. But we only managed 5 miles one day and 2 another. They were the most boring runs I’ve ever experienced in my life. Running on a treadmill that faced a wall would drive anyone batty.

Yesterday we put on our running pants and headed out before giving it much thought. We did 7 miles but man, they were mentally exhausting. My knee only hurt a little but it hurt my confidence a lot. I was pretty sure I wouldn’t be able to finish, with only 3 miles left. I was ready to hop on a bus and head home. But I didn’t. I kept going and we finished. But blocking out the idea of quitting was difficult. I had to reach deep to think positively.

Staying mentally strong has been my biggest problem training. I’m fine with the short runs. It’s the long runs, now that they’re past 5 miles, that really get to me. I leave the house with a heavy heart and a pit in my stomach. That wasn’t the case when we started training. Recently my self-confidence just isn’t there. I am hoping that things will change once we get back on our running schedule this week.

How do you deal with mental hurdles?